Don't ask, I dont want to talk about it.
Don't tell me you care, I know you do, I dont.
Don't tell me you will help at all cost, I know your willing, I am not.
Don't tell me to be happy, I'm not and you saying that wont change anything.
Don't touch me, I dont feel loved.
Don't tell me you love me, you say it a thousand times has it changed?
Don't say it's worth it, how do you know?
Don't tell me that it will be ok, there is no guarantee.
Don't tell me it is ok to be sad, not now.
Tell me how to be happy, can you do that?
Tell me what I am supposed to do.
Tell me how to make my family happy, neither can I.
I can't think anymore, my mind is twisted.
I can't smile anymore, I swear it hurts.
I can not feel anymore, fix it, does it help if I say please?

random feelings that is all I am so sick of trying to figure out my own life. We can not get a head for anything. I kill myself for work I work 92-100 hours a week adn its not enough. How can that be ugh oh well. On a better note there is hope of getting to see Joe C. this week!! Oh and I am also starting my 12 hours on April 9th oooohh I am excited. Hmm that is all....