Friday, November 04, 2005
I dont know haw to make my husband happy anymore. He would probably just say more blowjobs but he never takes my question about making him happy seriously. I mean I read his post and what am I supposed to think. He says that he is more dead then alive. Ok well fuck you too. How should that make me feel. I mean I am part of his life right? I just dont want to go through this again. I told him last time that he started his meds that if he stopped I would leave, does he remember? Does he realize that I didnt?? And he didnt even tell me he stopped he didnt tell me until it came out at a doc. visist that we were at together when I was pregnant. And I told him this day would come that these feelings would come back and he still came off them. I just I can not take the stress of this again I dont think. I will never make him happy. No matter what I do or what anyone does he will never be a happy person. So I either have to deal with that or not deal with it. I am so tired. ~Peaj
If you want to talk, let me know. That goes for both of you. I do know that Chuck says he feels a lot better and a lot clearer without the meds. I find this to be a positive thing, only because it's less to cloud his head. Meds work for some people, but he seems to deal with everything better off of them.
These are only my observations, and I know I'm not around all the time. I'll try to be around more. And now that you both have my CORRECT cell number, call me anytime. I'm here for you two.
Much love.